When i am thirty

When I am 30

When I am 30….

I will be half a man

I will have half a way

I will be half grown

I will be half educated

When I am 30

I will be half settled

I will be half succeed

I will be half believed

I will have half belief

When I am 30

I will be half asleep

I will be half awake

I will be half planned

I will be half dreamed

From now on

I will be start a step

I will be start a plan

I will be my own boss

I will be my own freedom

Hey life….

Are you ready?

Ready or not?

Here I come!

က်ေတာ္ ၃၀ ျပည့္တဲ့အခါ...

က်ေတာ္ ၃၀ ျပည့္တဲ့အခါ
လူလားတဝက္ေျမာက္ခဲ့ျပီ
ဘဝလမ္းတဝက္ေပါက္ခဲ့ျပီ
အရြယ္တဝက္ေရာက္ခဲ့ျပီ
ပညာတဝက္ ေတာက္ခဲ့ျပီ

က်ေတာ္ ၃၀ ျပည့္တဲ့အခါ
အနည္တဝက္က်ခဲ့ျပီ
ေအာင္ျမင္တဝက္ ထြန္းခဲ့ျပီ
ယံုုၾကည္တဝက္ ရွိခဲ့ျပီ
ယံုုၾကည္တဝက္ ရခဲ့ျပီ

က်ေတာ္ ၃၀ ျပည့္တဲ့အခါ
အိပ္ျခင္းတဝက္ဝခဲ့ျပီ
နိူးဖိုု႔တဝက္ စခဲ့ျပီ
စီစဥ္တဝက္ ေျမာက္ခဲ့ျပီ
အိပ္မက္တဝက္ေပါက္ခဲ့ျပီ

အခုုကစျပီး....
ေျခလွမ္း တလွမ္းထပ္စမည္
စီစဥ္တရပ္ထပ္ကမည္
ငါသာ ငါ့သခင္ျဖစ္ရမည္
ငါ့ဘာသာငါ လြတ္လပ္မည္

ဘဝေရ....
အသင့္ျဖစ္ျပီလား
ကိုုယ္ကေတာ့ လာျပီ။

A Chen

2:19PM

Monday

16th Jan 2012

Bangkok

Love last as lust (19th May 2011)

Love last as lust

I thought I love

Might be I wrong?

Again and again

I look I found

Your smile was sweet

But now what’s wrong

Again I look

The like was gone

I thought I love

But now I found

The love I think

Was not at all

So was it love

Or like I asked

And now at last

I found just lust

P.S.

What my friend said was true…

A Chen

6:37 PM

19^th May 2011

Thursday

By the Sea hotel

Cape Panwa

Phuket

Thailand

Some pills for me???

Some pills for me???

take some pills
that go easier
DO NOT hang
you will not die right away and had to suffer
and it also UGLY after u dead
......so no hanging
pills
BETTER

A Chen

12:04 PM

9^th Feb 2011

Wednesday

Bangkok

ကဗ်ာ အသုဘ စာ အသုဘ

ကဗ်ာ အသုဘ စာ အသုဘ

AC:
နင္နဲ႔ငါရဲ႕ ကဗ်ာေတြေသျပီလား
နင္နဲ႔ငါရဲ႕ စာေတြ ေနျခည္မျဖာ
နင္နဲ႔ငါရဲ႕ ၾကာရွည္ခင္မင္ရာ
ေလေနတာ ေဝေနတာ ေၾကြေနရွာ

နင္ေရာငါေရာကဗ်ာေတြခမ္းေနသလား
နင္ေရာငါေရာ စာေတြ ပမ္းေနသလား
နင္ေရာငါေရာ အမွာေတြတမ္းေနသလား
ေလနီၾကမ္းလာရာ
ေျဖမဆည္လြမ္းနာကာ
ေသမည္မွန္းမၾကာပါ
ေအာ္...
ငါ့နွယ္ ေျမမဟီကမ္းသာသာ

BS:
ဘုရားေဟာတဲ့
မတည္ၿမဲတဲ့သေဘာမွာ
ငါတို႔ ကဗ်ာေတြေရာ
ပါေနေလေရာ့သလား . . .

မုန္တိုင္းေတြ ပ်ာယာခတ္
မိုးစက္မိုးေပါက္ေတြ
ကေဗ်ာက္ကေသာက္ေျပး
ဒီလိုေဝးေနၾကရတဲ့ ေဆာင္းကလည္း
အာရုဏ္ကြန္႔ျမဴးျခင္းေတြ
ၿမံဳေနေလရဲ႕ . . .
ႏွလံုးသားႏွယ္ . . . နံနဲ႔နဲ႔ေျဖမဆည္ ။

AC:
My oh my
Where my lyrical themes?
Why oh why
Where are rhythmical lanes?
Cry oh cry
When my memories sane?
Try oh try
When will my poems rain?

BS:
Line by line
I'm losing my rhymes.
By and By
All nice dreams have flied.
Time by Time
Weeping heart will stop me cry.
Die and die
My rotten inspiration slowly die.

BS and AC
9:12 PM
8th October 2010
Friday
Online
Yangon and Bangkok

22 century

22 century

Sun

Melting us slowly

Heat

Growing unknowing

Men

Sweating like drowning

People!

Speeding like blazing

Lives

Hazing with dazing

Seasons

Changing like ending

Wind

Blowing like groaning

Streams

Crying out drying

Leaves!

Falling like trembling

Trees

Ending like dying

Earth

Dying woefully

GOD

Where were you sleeping????????????????????

A Chen

12:43pm

11 July 2010

Bangkok

My kind of relation…

My kind of relation…

I want to feel like
Wake up in the morning
Totally naked in bed
Feeling totally vulnerable
Without coffee

A naked GOD looking man
Walks towards me and kiss
He said,
“Got a meeting at ten
I’ll have to leave”,
Then he looks into my eyes, asked;
“Feeling cheap?”

I smile satisfactorily and answer,
“It is OK, fine,
Just leave the money on the table”.

!!!

A Chen
19th February 2010
2:55 am
Home
Bangkok

Kiss

Kiss

A gently sweet, cravingly touch
Make for you and me
Meant for what shall be
Shall the world ends
Shall me life doom
I shall never care
All I want from you is just one
Kiss
Sweet
Gentle
Craving
Tender
Fantastic
Kiss

A Chen
6:08 pm
11th July 2009
Home
Bangkok

Unexpected

Unexpected

Unexpectedly…..met
Unexpectedly…..young
Unexpectedly…..sweet
Unexpectedly…..liked
Unexpectedly…..brought him back to the Hotel
Unexpectedly…..kissed
Unexpectedly…..make love (There! I said it, it was making love and I meant it….it was not just some fuck)
Unexpectedly…..had to leave
Unexpectedly…..still thinking about him

It’s been xxx days
Unexpectedly…..still thinking about him

And now finally today
Unexpectedly…..he called

I wish…I am not…..
Unexpectedly…..fall in love………..

Well at the end of the day
The bottom line is
Everything is “UNEXPECTED”
Full stop

A Chen
1:06 am
11th July 2009
Home
Bangkok

Innocent encounter

Innocent encounter

Smile……
A shining smile
Light
Spark through my sight
He smiles

Blind….
My heart goes blind
In a blink of an eye
I blind
By his shining
Smile

Walk….
I walk across the room
Make my way to say
Hi…….!
Then I pop the questions….
Why oh why…

Are you…..?
Would you like to…?
Do you…….?
How about…………..?
Ok!
See you then.

Kiss…
Such a sweet kiss
We shall never release
I will never switch
With whatever it is
Hell on earth
I shall not miss
Other then your sweet lips
Is my only wish
So…………..
What do you say?
Would you be my
One and only wish
For a long, long list….

A Chen
4:21 am
21st June 2009
Home
Bangkok
(Wrote while Yogie sleeping by my side

so innocent, cute, lovely, charming)

My Irrawaddy

My Irrawaddy

Lovechild of May-kha and Mali-kha
Bride of the histories
She is…
My Irrawaddy

North to South
From the beginning till the end
We own as whole
In Myanmar
She is…
My Irrawaddy

From the silvery snowy Himalayas
Through the ravines and across the mountains
To the plains she comes
Queen of the rivers
She is…
My Irrawaddy

Gently now she streams around Legendary Bagan
(For) Kings may come and Dynasties may go
But she...
With unswerving intentions
Is always true to her people
She is…
My Irrawaddy

“Crack” – There goes the rice pot of the Delta
Broken in pieces.
Men they come and they go
Trash may ride along her waves
Becoming the Delta we grow nowadays but…
She is… (Still)
My Irrawaddy

Gold panning
Mercury rising
Fish dying
Human suffering-
What’s left?

Whatever it takes
She will go on forever;
Flow on forever
Where will the sun set one day?
Somewhere by the river bend
…………….
She is…
My Irrawaddy

Somewhere anywhere
Let us meet by the next river bend
Just you and me
……….
My Irrawaddy

Addy Chen
12:45am
15th May 2009
Home, Bkk

တီ့ သူငယ္ခ်င္းရဲ႕ စာအုပ္အတြက္ေရးေပးတဲ့ကဗ်ာေလးပါ

တီ အရင္က ျမန္မာ လိုလဲေရးဖူးပါတယ္ ခုဟာက သူ႔စာအုပ္အတြက္ မို႔လို႔ english ေရးေပးတာပါ

စာအုပ္ က coffee table စာအုပ္ပါ

ျမန္မာလိုပါ ျပန္တင္ေပးလိုက္ပါတယ္ ယွဥ္ၾကည့္ရေအာင္ပါ

တီ့ ကိုယ္တိုင္အေနနဲ႔ကေတာ့ ျမန္မာ လိုေရးရတာ ပိုအားရပါတယ္

စကားလံုးေရြးခ်ယ္ရတာ က အစေပါ့ေလ

အၾကိဳက္ခ်င္းေတာ့ တူခ်င္မွတူမွာပါ

ခံစားၾကည့္ၾကပါ

ဧရာ၀တီ

ေမခ နဲ႔ ေမလိခ ကေန

စလာလိုက္တာ

သူေပါ့

ရာဇ၀င္မ်ားရဲ႕သတို႔သမီးေလ

ေျမာက္ကေနေတာင္

တို႔ျမန္မာ တျပည္ထဲပိုင္တာ

အစေရာ အဆံုးေရာေပါ့

ဟိုးျဖဴျဖဴ နွင္းေတာင္လႊလႊ ကစလို႔

ျမစ္က်ဥ္းေတြ၊ ေတာင္စဥ္ေတြျဖတ္

ေျမျပန္႔ကို သူေရာက္ခဲ့ျပီ

ျမစ္မင္းဧရာ၀တီ

ပုဂံ ကို ပတ္ေခြကာစီးဆင္း

လူမင္းေတြ ဘယ္လိုေျပာင္းေျပာင္း

ျပည္သူေတြကို မေျပာင္းခဲ့တဲ့

သူ႔သေဘာထား

ခုထိမရိုးေသးဘူး

ေပးဆပ္ဆဲပဲ

ျမစ္၀ က ဆန္အိုး

ခုေတာ့ကြဲခဲ့ေပါ

့လူေတြျဖစ္လာတယ္

လူေတြပ်က္သြားတယ္

အမႈိက္ေတြေမ်ာလာတယ္

နႉံးေတြျဖစ္သြားတယ္

ေရႊေတြက်င္ေတာ

့ျပဒါးေတြကမ်ား

လူေတြနဲ႔ငါးေတြက….ဒုကၡမ်ား

ေနာက္ဆံုးေတာ့ ဘာက်န္သလဲ

ဘာပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္

ငါကေတာ့စီးဆင္းဆဲ

စီးဆင္းျမဲ

“ေန” ဘယ္မွာ၀င္မလဲ

တေနရာရာေပါ့ကြာ

မေက်နပ္ရင္

ေနာက္ျမစ္ေကြ႕မွာေတြ႔မယ္

A Chen

2:24 am

28th April 2009

Home

Bkk

The recent state of mind…………

The recent state of mind…………

Is green or gray?
I didn’t ask my self
And pretended not to see

If I still have colors in my mind, which can be distinguish
Then I can assure that color will be dark gray
My understanding is your misunderstanding

My season consist the tears you did not see
The spring is about to be gone
Is there a need to still wait?
Or should I just welcome the unfamiliar “apart”

The smiley face you used to see
Now can only be found in the blurring past

In a sudden like this
Even a visit to the past made me felt so weak
Tolerating the pain in my heart
Sense the sourly atmosphere in the air

Now…
I can only be strong to self-empathy

A Chen
1:34 pm
9th April 2009
Office
bkk

America

America

This is where u can be white
He can be black
I can be yellow and
She can be red

We eat Maccas and KFC
We drink coke and sprite
We used to have divas singing pop
And home boy hip hop
But now…..
White rapping and
Blacks popping

We talk about republic and democracy
And we stay sides
A man in the street corner said
“See this is what we are fighting for”

We are one BIG family
Where brothers killing each other
(Meaning: CIA and KKK as by BEP)
We have liberty monument and 911
Women weep while children sleep

We rule
We screw
We chill
We drill

NYC to LA
East coast and west coast
The cities that have sex
But still…………..
So desperate

In this country
Women are disposable pleasure
And where men are tissues
(You used them and you threw them away)
And love
Love is something you chewed someone up and spit them out
And there isn’t enough room for you and your ego

A Chen
3:29pm
26th Feb 2009
Office
Bkk
(Acknowledgement: Some of the lines are from the movies I watched, the song I heard)

အခ်စ္ဆိုတာ (ေနာက္တစ္မ်ဳိး)

အခ်စ္ဆိုတာ (ေနာက္တစ္မ်ဳိး)

Before

Darling
Sweetie
Honey
Sweet heart
Sweet pie
Sweet bear
Love
My heart

After

Screw you
Fuck you
Eat this (middle finger)
Bitch
Bastard
Son of a Bitch
Slut
Moron
Whore
Mother fucker

A Chen
2:57 pm
26th Feb 2009
Office
Bkk

အခ်စ္ဆိုတာ

အခ်စ္ဆိုတာ

Phase I

Darling
Sweetie
Honey
Sweet heart
Sweet pie
Sweet bear
Love
My heart

Phase II

Screw you
Fuck you
Eat this (middle finger)
Bitch
Bastard
Son of a Bitch
Slut
Moron
Whore
Mother fucker

A Chen
5:20 pm
24th Feb 2009
Home
Bkk

Lame excuses Part II

Lame excuses Part II

Communication
How important it is to keep two people close
What is the meaning of friendship?
Is long distance works in friendship?
If then
Better just to be friends
Simply friends

Emails!
Was it the only way of communication?
Yes, it was when I was back in Myanmar.
Emails were the only way of communication.

Now what?
I am here in Bangkok now
Where phone is available
But still…

Was it too hard to push some numbers?
Or was it too much to ask
What am I to you?
Tell me

This is just for the sake of the poem
No offends

After all
We will always be friends
Forever, forever
BFF
I know you won’t know it?
Again the influences of American movies
Best friend forever (BFF)
And finally…
I know now you are smiling after you reading this poem
And you will
May be say sorry
But for me
As I cannot hear

Always
You will be a part of me
My life
And I am really value this friendship
This bond between us
Even we are not two lovers

A Chen, 21st Feb 2009, Bkk

Things that I do

Things that I do

There are a lot of things I do for life
Some are about winning
Some are about jealousy
Some are about charity
Some are about hatreds
Some are about selfishness
Some are about ego
Some are about greed
Some are about money
Even
Some are about sex

But what I am doing now is only this and it is for u
Is about love and about happiness for “us”
Together forever
So
What do you say?
My luv

Do you believe it?

A Chen
4:30 pm
7th Jan 2009

The truth

The truth

The sea slowly gets away, the tides slowly getting closer
Yesterdays slowly gets away, tomorrow slowly getting closer
Spring slowly gets away, autumn slowly getting closer
Childhood slowly gets away, headaches slowly getting closer
Honesty slowly gets away, lies, pretence and cheating slowly getting closer
Holidays slowly gets away, boringness slowly getting closer

When I starting to realize all these
My god I was shock
Let us run away from everything
Now…

A Chen
4:30 am
7th Jan 2009

Lonely apple

ပံုေလးကိုနန္းညီ ဆီကတစ္ဆင့္ ဒီကေနရပါတယ္

http://www.bradleygallery.co.uk/

Lonely apple

Bite me once
You won’t get sin
You are not Adam
I am not Eve
We are not in the Eden garden
Where did “the Satan” in the form of snake go?

Bite me once
You won’t get poison
I am not an old witch in a form of Queen
You are not Snow White
Where did all the seven dwarfs go?
Where is my prince?
When will he come rescue me?

Bite me once
I am just a simple apple
“Lonely”
Lonely because no one willing to “bite me”

In Korea, an apple mean…
“The symbol of peace”
People will give an apple as peace offer
But don’t worry
There won’t be any fight between us
And we did not get in fight before
You are not left-side and
I am not right
So bite me once
It’s OK

Bite me once
Don’t worry
We won’t find the gravity
You are not “Newton”
I am not "an apple tree"
There won’t be any “action to reaction” between us
Because...
There is no third law
Just you and me
So bite me

I am just a simple lonely apple

A Chen
22nd Oct 2008
4:47 pm
Mexico city, fiesta americana

Lame excuses

Lame excuses

In my life……..
I have had done lots and lots of mistakes
Some are even GOOD mistakes
You know! Like Pleased, Contented
Happy

Ok let me ask you?

If a mistake is making you satisfied
As well as happiness
Then can you still call it “mistake”?
On the other hand
The main “factor” that make you did that mistake was “love”

A Chen
12:07 am
9th January 2009

Blur

Blur

Grey sky above me
My mind and thoughts are floating through
Is that a fish swimming in front of me
Green one

I jump out off the watery clouds
Oh My God
There is a cut in the sky
What if I go through there?
What will behind it?
Space!
Aliens!
Black hole!
Or so called heaven (if it is exiting)
Or Hell!

Sometime I want to believe
But for being unbeliever
I am just as content

What is life?
What is religion?
What is human being?
Why I am here?
Why me?

I heard an angel singing
Did I really hearing or just my illusions
I am confuse now
Every thing is blurring to me
Blank
Black
Blur

I wish I go deaf
Blind
And mute

I wish I’m dead!
A Chen,
4:26 pm,
5th Jan 2009,
home,
bkk.